I sometimes get too caught up in life. I won’t deny it. There are times I feel like all the positivity in me went all the way down the drain. I feel stressed out, confused, and in doubt. I hate the feeling of being in a limbo because of the things and situations happening around me. All these signs lead me to understand that I am experiencing what people call the QUARTER-LIFE CRISIS. I’d been battling this crisis for years now that started soon after I turned 25. It was subtle at first until it reached to a certain point of internal struggle that I found myself sleepless nights and crying over a lot of things. Honestly, I didn’t see this coming when I was a bit younger. In fact, I thought I got life figured out then. You know, when you’re young you feel like you know everything.

And then reality slapped me. I learned a lot along the way and life has given me so much to ponder upon. I never arrived yet to what am I supposed to be or where I should be.

But you know what? One thing I learned that struck me the most is this:

Life is never about the destination, it is always about the journey… A journey of faith in God.

I realized that all my pursuits in life be in my career, dreams, relationship with others, faith, and finance to name a few, I come to know that what makes a particular pursuit meaningful lies in the journey itself. A journey of Trusting God regardless of where He will lead us. I now get to appreciate “something” (whether it is a success or failure) because of the experiences I had to endure along the way to be able to get through it. Those experiences created in me a new and improved version of my self every single time.

 

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This is the view from my bed and my favorite place to pour my heart out. Every night while lying there, I get to see the night sky and be reminded that I am blessed and everything is going to be fine.

 

Now, don’t get me wrong. I still have my highs and lows. I still cry over a lot of things and my heart gets heavy whenever I am caught up in things I cannot control and understand. I still have a lot to learn in this lifetime. I surely would shed a lot more of tears, break my heart over and over again, dreams won’t materialize, plans keep changing, end relationships and create a new one, my faith will be continuously tested, money will be tight, and instead of pursuing a career overseas, I might find myself stuck doing the same work over again. I do not know what lies ahead and what I will become years from now. I need not know all the answers all at once because where’s the beauty in there, right? Answers come in pieces like how a puzzle becomes a whole when we painstakingly connect the pieces together to see the bigger and complete picture. After all, I am in faith of God’s beautiful promises in my life that I hold fast of them. There is nothing so comforting than to know that the Creator of the universe promised us of a beautiful life…what’s even comforting is He is faithful and every word He said can be trusted.

If you experience the same, remember that it is normal to feel sad and confuse. Some people may not understand and even assume the worst of you but God does. Enjoy the journey (even if it hurts) and learn from your every season. And above all, never forget that we have a God who is our friend, a comforter, and a counselor who constantly walks with us in our journey. He is a God who already orchestrated a beautiful plan for our life. We just have to trust and believe Him. Let me encourage you with this verse to go on with life and to know what awaits us if we remain in faith:

 

2 CORINTHIANS 4:16-18

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

 

 

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